New Years Eve

So I was disappointed today because last night my boyfriend told me that he wasn’t gonna hang out with me tonight to ring in the new year together. He said he wanted to go home and sleep even though he doesn’t have to work tomorrow.. But then this morning he comes over during his lunch break at work and saw how bummed out i was So he changed his mind.. I told him we don’t have to do anything special or big. He can take a nap and get some rest and then we can just play games, watch tv, or a movie or something… Now usually I’m not such a demanding spoiled brat but since it’s New Years I made a big deal out of it. After all they say “The way you spend New Years Eve is the way you’ll spend the rest of the year” and what could be better than spending it with the person you love. :D.

One Day

One day

I wont feel this constant worry

I will learn to trust because you will have earned it

One day

I wont kick myself for believing everything has changed

I will learn to expect the worse and hope for the best

I will except your choices and not wish for anything different

One day

I will love myself enough to not need you

I will grow up to match my age

and I will no longer have to pretend

But until that day comes

I will continue to worry and

wait for the day you stop lying

I will continue to be hurt everytime

I’m blindsided by your choices

And I will continue to love you unconditionaly

Until that day comes when i’ve finally had enough

It may not be fair

and i may ask too much

but i’ve had enough hurt

to last me 10 life times